[232b]: the backstory
i was fourteen
and called him Juice
a cousin of my best friend
who brought him to the library
where we talked
too much and i thought
really nothing of it
until he said otherwise
there are a lot more details
but in a nutshell
there was that summer
then the school year
then another summer
when he left.
he came back as someone else
and i was
someone else, of course
this was years and years later
that we'd decided to grow up
and ruin everything
i broke his heart for the last time
and didn't mean it that way
but knew that was it
when i saw him
white sheets and tubes and
no one told stories about us
we were millions of miles away
i regret being scared